Flash

It was there for a fleeting moment. And then BAM, it went away. As quick as it appeared. Gone.

Life is funny sometimes, and life is unpredictable as well. Right when you think you have life figured out, it throws you a curve.

I'm not good with curves. My being wasn't made for emotional turmoil. When other people I love hurt, I hurt even more for them. I envy the people that can turn away without a care. What do they possess in their genes that I don't have?

It was so close. I almost had a daughter move within reach. I could feel her, I could see her, heck I could almost taste her.

My emotions took control and I let my defenses down and actually imagined what it would be like to have family here. In the same area. In the same vicinity. In the same city. Could it be? Would it really happen?

So close. But not to be. Not now. Maybe later.

My heart sunk. I did it to myself. Hoped for something that wasn't to be. I was planning MY life. Forgot to take into account, other lives were involved.

Time to switch gears. Put the focus back on where it should be. Her life. Her wishes. Her future. Her choices.

I am so proud of her man. He set out to better himself in a difficult economy. Stuck to his goal through tough times. Knew within himself that there was something bigger and better for him. And he applied. And he applied. And then he applied again. All the highs and all the lows of the job hunt. Then the pay off. Not only did he receive an offer, but a position was created just for him. But not in Dubuque. How proud he should be of his perseverence. It is his time to shine.

So their lives are changed. For the better. When one is happy with one's life, the world itself is such a happier place.

I am happy too now. All I ever wanted was for my children to have a good life and be happy in their own world.

Life is funny sometimes.